MY TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY

BLINDING FLASHES FROM MY EYE SOCKET BEING CRUSHED MY NASAL ARCH NOSE FRACTURE RHINOPLASTY SURGERY HELPS WITH MY AIRWAYS THE SEVERE TRAUMA ON IMPACT SEVERE CAR ACCIDENT TWO MEN ON A LADDER ADJUSTING THE STREET LIGHT GREEN TO GO THE DRIVER DOES OUT OF NO WHERE A WHITE HYUNDAI STIKES US HYUNDAI FRIGHTENS ME SINCE MY STALKER DROVED ONE PARKED AT MY TOWNHOUSE LOOKING BACK AS MY HEAD HITS THE SIDE PANEL OF THE DOOR AS THE CAR SWERVES MY BRAIN IS BEING TOSSED INSIDE MY SKULL COMPLETE FEAR PRAYING ON THE PASSENGER SIDE WHEN WILL THE VEHICLE JUST STOP SPINNING FINALLY CRASH AGAIN IT STOPS I AM THANKING GOD FIR LIFE AS THE DRIVER RUSHES OUT THE CAR TO CHECK WITH OTHERS I NOTICE MY AIRBAG DIDN'T DEPLOY I ASKED HIM WHERES MY BAG HE ASSUMED I MEANT MY PURSE AT MY FEET I REACH FIR IT A D NOTICE A TINY BAG LOOKING LIKE A BALLOON IT HAD A RECTANGLE SHAPE LIKE A PICE IF WRIGLEY DOOBLE MEANT GUM BUT WHERE WAS A TICKING SOUND COMING FROM I FELT LIKE ROTHSTEIN IN THE MOVIE CASINO I WAS IN SHOCK TOO AFRAID TO TRY AND OPEN THE DOOR CIRO VOICE ON A WIRE SAYS DAM JUST COVER YOUR EYE BABY I KNEW THEN THIS WAS ANOTHER HIT IN MY LIFE THE CAR WOULD SOON BLOW THIS IS HOW I DIE ON MY WAY TO GET GROCERIES A RIDE FROM AN OLD FREIND ON CAPE CORAL AND KISMET THE SMELL OF CITRUS ROWS OF ORANGE LEMON LIME GROVES MY KIDS WILL COME HOME FROM SCHOOL TODAY WITHOUT A MOTHER SO MANY IMAGES WENT THROUGH MY MIND IN SUCH A SHORT TIME MY HAND OVER MY EYE I'M CURSING WHY WHY WHY DO I HAVE TO COVER MY EYE WHY THE TICKING MAKE IT STOP IT WAS ONLY THIRTY SECONDS WHEN WHOOOOM A POWERFUL BLAST HEADED STRAIGHT FOR MY EYE IMAGINE THAT DAZED UNCOUNCIOUS GRATEFUL CIRO HAD A CONCIOUS FOR JUST 30 SECONDS MY EYE WAS NEARLY BLOW OUT THROUGH THE BACK OF MY SKULL DAZED I WAKE UP TO THIS PINKISH JELLY LIKE BEIGE SUBSTANCE ALMOST LIKE CLAYDO ALL OVER THE DASH WHAT WAS THIS STUFF I GLANCE IN THE PASSENGER MIRROR MY EYE HANGING DOWN OUT THE SOCKET I COULD CLEARLY SEE THAT PINKISH BEIGE STUFF GOES UNDER NEATH MY EYE LID WHICH WAS RIPPED FLAPPED OVER LAYING ON MY CHEEK I LOOKED LIKE AN UNFINISHED CRASH DUMMY I PASSED OUT ONLY TO AWAKEN IN SHOCK AND BEGAN FIXING MY FACE STICKING THE STICKY SUBSTANCE BACK UNDER MY EYE THAT WAS HANGING A FEW MORE OEICES HAD ALREADY FRIED CRISPY LIKE CHICKEN OR BACON SIZZLING MY FLESH BEING COOKED BY THE HOT SUN ON THE DASHBOARD AND HOT WINDOW I LAUGHED CRIED PASSED OUT AGAIN TO AWAKENED TO FIRST RESPONDERS RUSHING TO SAVE MY LIFE ONE SAID STAY WITH ME THE OTHER ONE SAID THIS ONE WON'T MAKE IT TO THE HOSPITAL THAT AIRBAG BLEW HER BRAINS OUT THROUGH THE BACK OF HER HEAD I BET EVERY THING ON IT I SAW MARY JESUS AND MY DEAD LO ED ONES I SAW ME DECEASED IN A FETAL POSITION AS I WAS BEING MENDED BY GOD HIMSELF FIRST RESPONDERS REMOVED ME TO THE BACK SEAT A TEAM WAS REMOVING THE BLOODY AIRBAG BOMB THAT IGNITED BY THE SWITCHING OF THE STREET LIGHT VERY CLEVER BOMB MAKERS THE BEST MILWAUKEE BOMBER IT WAS AS IF FRANK BALISTERI MAD BOMBER WAS STILL ALIVE WELL I GRIEVED THE DEAD GIRL I WAS AND ACTUALLY THANKED CIRO FOR HAVING 30 SECONDS OF COMPASSION I WOULD BE DEAD OTHER WISE IN THEN END THE MAFIA IS WHAT IT IS A MURDERING OPERATION OF FRAUD RACKETEERING ARSON LOTS OF ARSONS LOTS OF BODIES IT TOOK MONTHS YEARS TO TALK WALK EVEN LEARN HOW TO PEE AGAIN I WAS INSTANTLY A THREE YEAR OLD MOTHER WHO COULDN'T HOLD A FORK OF TIE MY SHOE DIDN'T EVEN UNDERSTAND MENSTRUAL COULDN'T RECOGNIZE EXOTIC COLORS THEY HURT ON PRIMARY COLORS USING MY FINGERS TO TALK EAT YES I WAS EMBARRASSED ASHAMED ISOLATED ONLY PETER CAME TO VISIT LAWYERS INSURANCE COMPANIES I WAS A PRE SCHOOLER AGAIN I LAUGHED CRIED WROTE POETRY WITH ONE HAND LOTS OF MISSED SPELLED WORDS BUT I WAS DESPERATELY TRYING TO SAVE MY BRAIN FROM DEMENTIA WHAT IF IT JUST STOP BLESSING I WROTE A AUTOBIOGRAPHY YEARS BEFIRE I HAD BEEN JOURNALING FOR YEARS SO FOR THERAPY I WROTE AT LEAST TEN POEMS A DAY MAYBE MORE UNCONTROLLABLE WRITING I WAS CRIPPLED ON DISABILITY I DIDN'T WORK SO WRITING POETRY WAS MY LIFE STILL US I CAN'T STOP WRITING ITS A DISABILING CONDITION AT THIS POINT I WROTE SO MUCH ABOUT MY ANXIETY DISORDER MY PANIC ATTACKS DOMESTIC VIOLENCE WORKING FOR THE FBI WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI I WROTE ABOUT CIRO MY LAST MEMORY WAS TRAUMATIC JUST COVER YOUR EYE BABY SO I WROTE POEMS ABOUT MY ACCIDENT FAITH GOD LOVE FAMILY WHIKE I LAY BLEEDING CIRO WAS PLOTTING THE RACKETEERING OF MY TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY CLAIM I HAD NOTHING BUT JESUS MY DOCTORS MY CHILDREN WHILE MY ABUSIVE HUSBAND SAT WITH CIRO MY IMPOSTER BRUTALLY ATTACKING ME SLANDER NAME CALLING RETARD RETARD PUSHING SHOVING FIRST IT FINALLY ESCALATED CIRO DEMANDED HE BREAK MY ARM I WAS WRITING TOO MUCH ABOUT THE ARSON MURDERS OF 9 I WAS COPING 22 YEARS HAS PASSED I AM STILL IN TREATMENT BLESSED INJECTIONS IN MY HEAD EVERY MONTH FOR TRAUMATIC HEADACHES CRAINAL THERAPY MEMORY CARE PSCHIATRIST MEDICATIONS PHYSICAL THERAPY NEVER ENDING FLASHBACKS YOU IN THE QUIET CALM I THINK OF CIRO PUTTING A HIT ON ME FINDING COMPASSION FOR ONLY 30 SECONDS HEVSAID DAM JUST COVER YOUR EYE BABY LIKE WEVWERE HAVING COFFEE IN THE SHOP ARMORETTO CREAM DAM BEING WHACKED HAS ITS PERKS I FIND MYSELF COVERING MY EYE IT HURTS A LOT BRIGHT LIGHTS FEELS LIKE AN ICE PICK STABBING MY EYE BALL I AM PARTIALLY BLIND CAN'T SEE OR READ WITH OUT GLASSES OR CONTACTS BUT I KNOW I'M BLESSED GOD LOVES ME SO MUCH THST HE SITS ON MY BED AND TELLS ME DAUGHTER DO NOT BE AFRAID I AM WITH YOU JUST COVER YOUR EYE BABY HAD I NOT MY OWN EYEBALL MOVING WITH SUCH FORCE FROM THE PRESSURE OF THE BOMB WOULD HAVE BLOWN MY BRAINS OUT THROUGH THE BACK OF MY SKULL PERFECT BOMB INSTEAD MY BRAINS BLEW UP INSIDE MY SKULL PRESSURE OOZED FROM MY EYE SOCKET NASAL ARCH BE THAT AS IT MAY I'M BROKEN BUT I'M ALIVE SOMEDAY I WON'T REMEMBER CIRO GARGANO THAT FAMOUS HIT ON MY LIFE PERSONAL CARBOMB BLAST WHOOOOOOM AND THATS THAT MILWAUKEE MAFIA THE MAD BOMBER I AM SOMEBODY GOD BLESSED THE TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY OF FLORIDA AND THE TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY ASSOCIATION OF AMERICA GOD BLESS AMERICA